Can't help myself.

It's just fate which kept me here. I wasn't given a choice, I believe. All this reasons used to prove naught, but not anymore. When I deciced to go, it comes running back to me, on its knees, pleading and please. How could I stand here and not move.. Was it a choice? Or it's destined. Was it to prove the will in me? Sorry to say that I've proven it all wrong. Why couldn't it be forgotten, why must it be cherished? Hurt sold to keep? There to stay and leave a hole where my heart should be..? I feel so sorry for myself everyday... I followed and listen to my heart... But it couldn't feel for me anymore... What have I done wrong tell me, to deserve this. They gave you a chance and a choice, but... What about me? This isn't fair, I can't deserve any better. Wait, the world wasn't fair in the first place. But if it could all go away, and never come back... Wouldn't you let me be..? I hate to contradict myself. Not only did I contradicted the truths, my feelings and emotions, I lied to myself. The biggest liar, Me. If only it didn't exist, I would have one less to careless...... She drowned, that's why nobody could save her..